July 2, 2008

I had a great anniversary yesterday.  My husband took me in for a deep tissue massage (I needed that badly) and out for dinner at Red Lobster.  I dont know how he managed to stuff that money aside, but he did.  My shoulders and back are loosend up and a bit sore, but it is so nice to not have pain in them.  I wish I could have that done atleast once a month.  It truly does help with depression and anxiety.  Maybe one day!  This was my 1st marriage we ate the cake top from our wedding after one year (had it in the freezer).  I always forgot with the other ones.  Maybe that will help us make it to the end. My husband may only be 22 years old, but he is carring, loving and very supportive.  Something men my age and older never where for me.  Age has nothing to do with it though.  It is the person.  How he became so wonderful is beyond a miracle.  He was abused, even stabbed by his mother (she was an alcoholic until 2 years ago).  His sister beat on him for years and he was homeless at age 14.  He is smart and knows how to do all the things we need done around here.  OK enough of that. I hope you all are doing well today.  I am sending you all hope and love on this good day I am having.  I hope it helps get you all through your day! NOTE:  Something you may not know about BPD - we tend to look at things in black and white with no grey areas.  I feel deep love and wonderment one day and can feel hatred the next.  It is truly a rollercoaster of emotions.  Thanks to all who have been supporting me.