July 19,2021

July 19 ,2021

Monday, July 19, 2021

4:54 AM

I have to record this because things are coming up short and of course she is up to something. She has told me that she will never get in the way of me seeing my kids but that is not the case anymore. For weeks I have tried to come up there to see my two boys but something else is lurking around the corner and it bothers me that I am in the dark. It has been one excuse after another and having Kaitlin at the house more frequently but I will never know if it was true or not as her mother tells me she never wants to see me ever. I am so sadden. What is she trying to pull, but from what I think is that she doesn't want me to see my kids at all. I just wish that they will stand up to her but that will never happen. The only time I will know what Gabby is up to is what ever she records on Tic Tock. I have tried sending her a couple of text and Vanne with no response from them at all.

I hear Daniel in the background telling me that we shouldn't have done this as it was a biggest mistake ever.

But where would we be today, I keep telling myself that if we stayed we would have gotten Covid19, or blind or worse yet dead. I keep reminding him of those things as we wouldn't be in a better position as if we stayed there. I tell him to stop thinking this as I am happy and never this much happy since our wedding.

We must keep working on our skill of not allowing her to think that she makes us upset with her pop- shots like her telling us " You have made your choice to put yourself and your happiness above our and I need to do the same." I have to get it in my mind that she doesn't want anyone around her being happy because she is not happy herself. I figured that if I mentioned that I was going to attend the appointments to get the surgery done she would try to keep me away from my kids and use Katlin saying that she never wants to be around me or see me ever again. What daughter can say that to their father after some Tennie boppers from years ago bad mouthing about her DAD. I really haven't done nothing to her at all. I just don't understand why she has to be like her mother. Merle tells me it's her choice but why doesn't she have the guts to tell me herself !!!

I just don't know how to deal with this but so far I have been able to cope with it.

I have told Merle that I still care about her even though we are not together and we are still married. The newest thing that she texted me stating that she has an attorney to handle the divorce and any future dealings, yea like she said that a couple of years ago and nothing came of it.

I am still waiting on the stimulus and the income tax check. I am counting on some of it. I just hope for her sake she didn't cash it or forge my name on it or spent it off the card as I won't be to pleased. I want to use it to pay off my medical bills and I am going to go start the process of the divorce. Danielle does not trust her unlike Daniel always wanting to trust her after she took every penny from last years income tax check. This will be the last year for this crap and if she does not like it "tough" it will be the end of all ties with her and if that means unable to see my kids so be it. I know it will hurt and crushing knowing what I will feel but I have to get Daniel to realize that she is continuing her control over us. It’s a hard thing to grasp but he needs to open his eyes more that she is continuing playing her games and its time to cut the last string since she hasn't realized that the games are over. But wait she is rewriting history as usual.

Manny times she has told me that she will never keep me away from my kids but again she has. Having it be the third time coming up with and excuse every time. Telling me that Katlin will be at the house or she ist taking them someplace and not to bother coming up.

So far I haven't heard any word on the stimulus check or the income tax refund I wonder if she got it and cashed it already I wouldn't put it past her. I hope to get some it, but I guess that is wishful thinking.