July 10 2015
Well it was 9 months of my sweet wonderful husband Brownie being gone on the 3rd of this month. I have been crying everyday. Why????? I though I was doing somewhat better then BOOM here comes this big wave of emotions that won't let go. I'm still in the same funk right now as of this writing. I still can't make up my mind what to do about this big house. It's big, expensive to run, upkeep and yet I don't know if I should sell and get a condo or stay put. Why can't I make a decision and when will I be able to. Oh God help me because only you can. Help!
I hope all my friends on here and everyone is doing better then I am. Good luck to you all and God bless you in you grief and healing. Linda
I hope all my friends on here and everyone is doing better then I am. Good luck to you all and God bless you in you grief and healing. Linda
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Please do not beat yourself up, you are right where grief usually is at this time in your loss. Take baby steps forward and do not make decisions right now when you are questioning it. It will work out you will know when the time is right to make that decision. Hang in there, I know a horrible sentence to read......we care
Oh I thank you so much for your reply. You have been at this longer then me. It\'s hard huh? I appreciated you taking the time to write to me. I just thought 9 months ago when people kept saying time heals that getting close to the year mark I would be better. I guess I was wrong. It\'s hard after a 35 year relationship to loose the love of your life. So hard. I\'ll hang in there. I\'m really trying. Thanks again and I hope your doing okay in your journey. Linda
You have a tough row to hoe. I\'m sorry for your pain. We all have our own timetables for healing. It\'s very hard to lose your true love. I\'m hoping for you to feel a little better. Here\'s a thought, you are due for some good stuff. Chris
Thank you Chris. That is a nice thought. I will have to keep that in mind. I hope you are doing okay in your lonely journey. That\'s what I can\'t stand the loneliness. You say you stay in the house I am the opposite, I need to get out of here. I feel like the wall are closing in on me. I get in the car and drive in circles and sometimes cry as I drive. I just need to be out of here. Then I return home because I have no where else to go. I have never been good with change and this is the biggest change in my life ever!!! I wish you well and will try to remind myself that I\'m due for some good stuff. Thanks, Linda