Joyless

My family is making me crazy again.  My son is mean to me and my husband is whiny.  My son bosses me around like he's an adult.  I end up arguing with him a lot.  I don't have the physical or mental strength to deal with him.  My husband works a full time job so when he gets home he expects me to wait on him hand and foot.  It is so degrading.  If I say something about it, he argues with me.  I always have to be on deck for someone or something. I find very little joy in life anymore.  I'm tired of living.  I won't kill myself at this time but someday... I turn 40 in a few days.  My life has been one big FAIL.  I don't want to be here anymore.  The world is a crummy place.