Journals/ JObs

Ok so apparently it looks like I rarely journal too much which i guess im sorry for i dont no. I just rarely have time, which i guess is a lie, cuz i am usually also on my comp but i am usaully doin several other things. Mainly browsing the internet looking for work or jobs, which is a big part to why im not really depressed but kinda sad. I have 3 or 4 part time jobs which sounds like a lot of work but it really isn't cuz one of the jobs is with my church, so its only once a week for an hr or 2 on sundays sometimes we might have a weekend event to do but i still get a monthly paycheck no matter if i work extra hours or not. My next job is doing presentations or talks to high school or colleges places like tht but i could work 3 times a month or 10 a month, so i cant really rely on that job. My next one i am a host at the restaurant i used to serve at which is probabaly my worst job cuz of the pay and the fact tht i work with 16 old girls mainly, so not too fun. but they have been good to me, so ill stick around until i find something else.My last job is the one i do the most I am a gym superviser at the YMCA near me, but this job is not tht many hours available only 9 per week. So there isn't any more i can do there since football and basketball season are both over, I referred both of those sports which added about 10 hours a week.
But since all these jobs don't add up to much hours or money i have defitenely been stressing about  my money situation especially since i now have my own house and have to pay the bills tht come along with it. plus i cant look too cheap in front of my girlfriend which makes me feel a little bad cuz its nice to take her out every now and again. So i guess after all my jibberish and making no sense i am trying to say tht i really need another job whch will give me more hours preferbly dasy time hours since most my other work is night time work. I do have an interview thursday at Emily Bisell hospital for activity aide. It's like a nursing home so it would be working with elderly or disabled, which is something i would like doin.
I have been praying that i can find more work so that i can be less financially worried but i dont no if im being fair since some people dont have any work or money coming in. so i feel guilty or bad tht i want more or am feeling bad for not having enough. i dont no i pray tht others can get help too i dont no here.