Journaling

I have been writing a journal for years.  It is not online, but on my computer.  I lost a few months once when I had a laptop stolen from me, but I got that laptop from an ex and so I am glad it is gone now.  Sometimes, I save it on my mail.  I should go back through that stuff and look at my life before the MS, but I don't want to remind myself of my life before.  Background pictures on my desktop remind me of times in my life when I did this or that.  I should be glad that I got to do those things before this happened to me.  I used to really live, now my life is quite different.  When the sun goes down, I can't see a thing and I need help getting around.  I hate that.  I have lived my entire life being quite independent.