Journal 1 July 2019

I dont know why I cant get up here for a little bit everyday and journal.  I know the value of it.

Checking to see if I have enough money to bury my wife Tuesday.  Assuming so, will get that done Friday or Saturday.  

I had great hopes for family most of my life.  Thats coming crashing down with my Edith's Death.

Her family doesnt like me, thinks I am a failure.  I hadnt been able to find a job loast 7 years.  

Noone answered applications most of the time.

I havent heard from any of my six children in the last 18 years.  Worst case divorce, their mother insane, evil.

So, looking for jobs, I dont make enough money to keep my home by myself, income cut in half.

I can do my Edith's burial, but wont be easy.  Her family wants it done, some of them will be there, wont be long.

Her parents and elder sister are buried there, a nice place, peaceful, shade trees, a pond and fountain nearby.

Not far away, I can come to visit couple times a week.

I know she is with me, her Spirit.  With God too, comfortable and happy.

I hope my body holds out to get and keep a job, medical stuff keeps going wrong.

I'm to have steroid shot in my spine next month, problesms walking right nerve in my leg.

Still feeling bad, trying to keep moving and get/keep a job.

Praise the Lord