jobs, money, insecurity, change
life is not changing, i really had enough of all this, since lost my job in faberuary 2009had such bad luck job wise. applied so may that i feel stupid that why not many people have called. feel all negitive, frustrative, broken heart, life less, tired all the time, no energy. had so many plans in life so much to achieve but the money has put me back actually took me back 5 years in past. really wana to move on, there is no sign of any light from tunnel, living a dead life, until when, why, why, why is just always me that whenever things start to pick up i go back in the past and dark again. what have i done to deserve this? this whole year been worse for me not much apart from 1 or 2 things, life has taken a bad or worse turn, i am waiting desperately this to end but when when when, i wana to move put of this shit whole, too mcuh stress just living here. there is a burning fire in my mind all the time. i was started to get back on track last year and all of a sudden all went down, unsure about future life is dull, soggy muddy, why why why me why this all happens to me? i have positive mind, positive aproach, but why all negitivity for me, why why why who to ask and who to blame? life sucks, when is the end coming when the end is due?
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