Jitters

Progress is looking steady on the house closing, but it ain't over till the ink dries. At the moment, I seem to be the only shakey thread in the weave. How impressive is it that Hubs is acknowledging that as merely natural and providing more grounding support than executive takeover sandwiched betweed domestic tit-for-tat skirmishes? His help in facilitating the process has been genuinely helpful and even confidence-building.

The jitters have been jittery enough to rock me back to my old habits of calling myself mean names for every tip of the personal balance. Been quite a few tips of the personal balance. I nearly tripped myself in the effort to get my slippers off as I settled into the chair with my laptop in hand for this portion of the morning ritual. Persilly jumped in self preservation reflex. I am reminding myself to keep it compassionate as I work with the process instead of fighting ^it^. Nervous anxiety seems like a pretty natural piece of the process. Emotional violence isnae a good remedy.

Did I speak too soon on the support from Hubs? His texts started early with executive intensity this morning. It doesn't take long to do an executive takeover and he has a generationally solid history of exactly that. However, it felt like solid that I was able to speak the anxiety and he responded with, "Fair enough" and a return to confidence building. Prayers in progress.