January's Departure

January had a slight turn around for the better in the aspect of saving my health insurance. I was able to get financial relief to pay off the back amount of my insurance that I am able to keep my insurance. With the remaining amount I was also able to pay off some of my Hospital bills as well and lower more of the debt with Atlantic eye care the bill that I have been paying since 2020. I thank God that they have been cooperative with me unlike Temple who they placed my bill in collections, but it has got me thinking that maybe I should have taken them up with the payment plan even though I was still making some kind of a payment, but it aggravates me on what they did but I might have to take a trip up on Wed to find out what is going on with the charity care program with them so I can get the collection office off my back, I am not sending them any payments, I will keep sending the payment directly to the hospital, I still don't know if any of my payments reached them as I never got a receipt of the recorded payment.

So far I am feeling a little better in paying off my medical bills without being overwhelmed.

There has been some improvements in January as well they are starting to hire more people and they are talking about increasing the operating hour to almost normal hours, I did request to only work daytime so I may have some kind of a normal life. That will remain to be seen.

As for my body January was challenging being 5 months out from having open heart surgery I am still having difficulties in getting back to my norm. having pressure still in my chest area certain organs are slipping as I am trying to figure out ways to get them back to normal. I am still dealing with shortness of breath and being tired as nothing has changed with my sleeping habits.

As for my family nothing has changed with them I still don't talk to them.  Merle wanted me to come up this weekend but I told her I was going to Danielle not Daniel. But she of course reminded me that Daniel made her that promise only to go up as Daniel but it was kind of funny telling me that I have split personalities, but I always felt that I was Danielle and I told her that she was talking to Danielle not Daniel. She still won't acknowledge my true self as still calls me Daniel. The other issue is that she will not tell me the date of our second marriage so I may proceed with the divorce, to move on with my life. But I not going to be able to see my boys again, which is sad on my part, but how am I going to be able to deal with this ??? I still haven't come up with an answer to that question as of today. But I am not going to give up.

As far as trying to find someone to alleviate the loneliness in my life, I might be forced to go to a paid dating site to see if I can make any progress. I would think so because it's paid and they shouldn't have any scammers on their due to the fact they have to pay to be on there. Will see what happens if I decide to do it or not the other factor would be are they LGBTQ friendly??

February just started as I always hope that maybe I can progress further in my goals. But we shall see what happens. For now anything changes will be documented.