January 2024

January 2024

Sunday, January 7, 2024

2:07 AM

A start to another year and it came with a big surprise. My daughter gabby reached out to me sending me photos of my grandson. I told her how much I love her and the rest of my kids including their mother. I think it is a start but in her own words she needs time. At least it is some progress and I will take it anyway I can but I am not going to give up on any of my kid and not Merle as I still love her. Maybe 2024 will be a special year for me with wonderful surprises.

Well I tried to see my step brother as I went to a couple places that he runs or partners with only to get my phone blown up by adella"s Daughter cursing me out telling me that I am not

She goes on saying

" Final fucking warning stay the fuck out the dispensary and pappies and leave her fucking grandmother alone. Seriously would b best if ud just move back with Merle and so us all a fucking favor or just go rot in hell. But stay tf away from the family and the business associated with my family. I will literally fuck ur life all up if you keep doing this shit. Your not a Nuscis, we do not want you  we do not fucking like you. Your dead to all of , So please fuck off and leave us all the fuck alone.

Now let's go back several years when my dad Frank Married Francis Rosenthal and later adopted Tom (same Last Name) Making him my step brother and then later between the both of them they had a child and named her Adella. Which would make her my Half-sister and Adella married Rob and had several kids, three if I am not mistaken by Rob. But my point is in this situation is that or maybe I could be wrong is that I and my other brother are the original Nuscis of the family disregarding the fact that the person who wrote the horrible message to me is not really considered my family only incorporated the family name, noting Half sister.

My wife has done horrible things to my family that caused harm to Fran, I am sorry to hear about it what happened but Merle has done considerable damage to me but of course this person don't want to hear it and blames me for everything for what happened. Somehow they found out that I stepped into the establishment asking questions in hope that my step-brother would be there, I was talking to one of the people there and found out that she is a transgender like me, she was telling me about her transition but was not going to go any further which is her choice and all of sudden my phone blows up with Instagram messages. Now I'm not daniel that will sit and take the abuse from heather and get my stepmother upset for because I went to a public place and get threaten by her! I won't tolerate it as she is messing with the wrong person. She can not tell me where I can't go as it is a public place. I was respectful and will not get bullied by her as I have my rights and she is verbally making terrorist threats against me that I can have her arrested. I did report the conversation to Instagram and they terminated her account. I sent her a message telling her that I am not Daniel that will sit back and let things go.  I am tired of Daniel being blamed for something he didn't do. I am not going to put up with this crap from no one as the air needs to be cleared up and these people need to grow up and learn the truth as it will be up to them to accept it or not. They are going to realize that I am not the villain here  just the victim just as much as they are.

This year I feel that there will be something good out of it. But I don't know as I am just trying to live my life the best way I can. Every day at work I am always thinking or talking to myself in my mind and feeling sad for myself. I know that I will never go back to Merle. So far this month I have a feeling about my daughter Gabby that she has opened the door just a crack and I hope that she will allow me back into her life but I have to give her time and I hope that she will. AS for the rest of my family I do not know, ever since my oldest daughter moved in with her mother I have not been able to see them in a long time. I still get limited response from Merle knowing that she has me blocked with both numbers as I know that she has it on all the time. With the incident with Heather my stepmother has blocked me as well. I just hope that I don't have on of those episodes of wanting to commit suicide. Between my loneliness and trying to find companionship should I give up! But I am tiered my body hurts from the accident as I was in to much pain that it effected me to badly that the pain was unbearable. That I am going to go ahead and start doing the injections in hopes that it will calm down the pain. It hurts when I walk, not even the Ibuprophin.

Every day it is get harder with the pain that I am feeling and having the weather change I am feeling it.

I am often wondering many times as I discuss a few things with Daniel on several topics. What to do with my settlement and wondering how much. I do know that we have decided to find our own place to live more freely.

Since it's tax time again I am still looking at owe the fracking IRS money which is more than last year, but I have found that if I claim head of house hold I might get something back but I have to find out more about since I am still married and not living with merle but I do pay for her Health insurance and maybe I can use it for my advantage. I do not know about the state yet and I don't want to know.

As for the audition for Barbizon agency I postponed till Friday Feb2, I feel like I am getting somewhere instead of dealing the middle person. I hope and pray that I can succeed in getting me to shine my best. I am reading on how to do different poses to help me out. I will say that every time I am about to do some auditions I pray that I will inspire them but again I have my age against me.

On the relationship part I don't have the cash to waste my time with eHarmony, POF or any type of dating app. I don't feel that I will not find anyone to be my partner for the rest of my life. But once again I am still married to merle as I don't feel that she will never give me what I want.

I am hopeful that I will get chosen by Barbizon so I may start working as a model and then I can say goodbye to arby's and work as a model, that would bring so much joy to myself, it will be something that Danielle has accomplished and saying goodbye to the last thing of something Daniel was doing, being only Danielle. Danielle will accomplish her own identity of being Danielle.

As for the up coming month of Feb I have two auditions one for fashion week in Baltimore in August which will give me more exposer if I don't make it the cut with Barbizon which is Friday but I will be calling out from Walmart sacrificing a point which will be worth it. I hope that I will succeed. One thing that I have done is that I got recently being noticed all the amazing work I have done from what the physic told so far. Well the end of January 2024 is coming to a close as I wait what will February will bring me. Will see!!