January 20

So I'm working at Domino's now. It's kicking my ass pretty hard, but frankly I don't mind. It kind of takes away from time I could have with Telly, but she seems happier I'm working anyways. Kyle seems to be having a good time as well. I'm enjoying it.I've been seeing Telly just about every night after work. In a way I feel it's helping us get closer, but I also feel like I'm just some guy still. That kind of hurts. I've been doing everything I'm supposed to and she says it's getting better. I hope it is, I really do, but part of me feels a little stabbed at. Honestly, I didn't do anything that horrible. I missed a few things and didn't really let her know what was going on, but she's done the same. I have to ask her questions to get information out of her, most of the time she's disappointed i didn't tell her about something and she hasn't asked about it. I sometimes feel like I'm on a one way street. But I'm trying to see her point and just keep going. Colton and Telly got in trouble at work, they finally found out that they play cards at night with us. Apparently a few customers complained. So I guess that takes more time out of me hanging out with her. She told me she may be leaving in the near future, I don't blame her. Colton is thinking about it too, he just needs to get settled. I'm planning on leaving Midland, I'm always thinking about it and even when i make up my mind it seems to go away. Honestly, it's my relationship with Telly that keeps me here. My debts are disappearing, life is going alright, but I'm not happy in Midland. I keep feeling a calling out there.Telly went to see Leap Year yesterday with Keirra, I understand why she doesn't invite me most of the time cause if I'm working then i might be late and all that. But it seems she sees all these movies with Keirra, Joshua and Shauna that I really want to see. Then she doesn't understand why I feel down about the fact that she's seeing a movie for the second time while it's my first time. In alot of ways, she doesn't seem to care or want to care; but she expects me to care when it's about her. Anyways, she ended up back at her house, she knew i was off work and she had said she would message me after the movie. She didn't. I messaged her at like 10:30 asking what was going on and she said she was playing RockBand with Keirra and it'd only be a little longer. Well two hours later I get a message telling me to come play. I was going by Tim Horton's and decided to check in there to see if maybe they were there. They weren't and that's when Colton told me everything. I ended up at her place at 1 am...an hour later. And Joshua, Shauna and Keirra were leaving and she was heading to bed. I spent a little bit of time with her, but nowhere near what I wanted to. Today she's going over to Joshua's to hang out with Shauna and him. She said she probably won't be all night.  I have a feeling she will be...something in my mind just tells me she will be. All of that yesterday made me think of all the other times she says things like "I'll message you after" and I don't get a message. She calls me unreliable...yet she does it right back. I'm hoping to get my truck back today, I miss it and it comes in very handy for things.Anyways, I'm done for now.