January 18, 2008

Well at least the coughing is easing & so I finally got some sleep last night & only had to get up 3 times to go the loo & once for more painkillers. Probably helped by staying up late so that I was exhausted & slept till abou 8am. Have got a little bit of my voice back so can talk in little bits before coughing. As for the ms, have ltd neck movement, left arm & leg are still not functioning properly & aching all the time, tablets dont seem to be helping with that but I hate to think what it would be like without the pain killers etc. Bladder control is really bad at the moment so have had to use a thicker pad & change more often, bowels are also affected this time & cant tell teh difference between a fart & an accident (sorry if a bit gross). Have had the bowel problem only when I have had flare ups so guess that confirms that I am still having a flare up.  

I have noticed that I am pulling back from a lot of people over the last few months & have no desire to get myself moving & join in anything. I am even avoiding phone calls as I just cant be bothered having to tell people what is happening or to gloss over it. Guess thats why the Dr increased the antidepreeant I am on (which is a mild one). I usually phone some of my friends regularly & they phone me but I just cant be bothered as feel like I am always complaining/whining.

Thats my ramble for today. Thanks for reading

AusSue