Jan 22,2011
my i am on the first day of my cycle i just wished it would stop i would never have another one..i started looking into my family tree on my dads side i know nothing about his dads side i never new my grandparents i was very small went they pasted
my husband said looking into my dads side of the family isnt going to make him love me and that maybe i was looking for a family that wanted me i dont know- my dad never new his dad he was killed in the mines in 1940 and his mom gave him away to her parents so i guess it is hard to show love but he did at one time it seem like after mom died my family went to hell in a hand basket..i was alright with the way things was until i went though my divorced my family took my ex husband side and i moved away i couldnt handle living in wv because of the ex telling everyone he was going to kill me so i got out of the red zone.but i guess after looking back on it i think ive been depressed for a while but in a different way(if that makes any point)i always got out and did things but now i just cant get out i dont want to i dont feel tired or nothing i just cant make myself do nothing...my outlook on life was IT IS WHAT IT IS...NOTHING EVER MESSED WITH ME..NOW I QUESTION EVERYTHING I WORRY ABOUT EVERY THING NOW IF SOMEONE PASTED AWAY THAT I JUST NEW IN PASTING IT WORRYS ME..I KNOW I CANT CHANGE PEOPLE BUT I ALWAY GOT THAT HOPE....I DONT KNOW MAYBE IT THE PMDD WORKING ON ME...WELL PEACE AND LOVE TO ALL
my husband said looking into my dads side of the family isnt going to make him love me and that maybe i was looking for a family that wanted me i dont know- my dad never new his dad he was killed in the mines in 1940 and his mom gave him away to her parents so i guess it is hard to show love but he did at one time it seem like after mom died my family went to hell in a hand basket..i was alright with the way things was until i went though my divorced my family took my ex husband side and i moved away i couldnt handle living in wv because of the ex telling everyone he was going to kill me so i got out of the red zone.but i guess after looking back on it i think ive been depressed for a while but in a different way(if that makes any point)i always got out and did things but now i just cant get out i dont want to i dont feel tired or nothing i just cant make myself do nothing...my outlook on life was IT IS WHAT IT IS...NOTHING EVER MESSED WITH ME..NOW I QUESTION EVERYTHING I WORRY ABOUT EVERY THING NOW IF SOMEONE PASTED AWAY THAT I JUST NEW IN PASTING IT WORRYS ME..I KNOW I CANT CHANGE PEOPLE BUT I ALWAY GOT THAT HOPE....I DONT KNOW MAYBE IT THE PMDD WORKING ON ME...WELL PEACE AND LOVE TO ALL
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NOTHING WRONG WITH LOOKING INTO YOUR FATHERS SIDE OF THE FAMILY. PEOPLE DO IT ALL THE TIME.. i WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MY DADS FAMILY HE WAS FROM GERMANY AND CAME TO THE USA AS A YOUNG BOY.. SO A LOT LOSS , WE DID HOWEVER GET A YOUNG BOY FROM GERMANY WITH THE SAME LAST NAME LOOKING FOR THE FAMILY`S WHO MOVED FROM GERMANY AS MY DAD FAMILY DID FOR A FAMILY TREE.. i THOUGHT THAT WAS COOL ...HE HAD A LOT OF INFORMATION AND A SITE WE COULD GO ON.
THINGS CHANGEING AFFECT ME BADLY, YOU SAY WORRYS, BUT i GET UPSET OVER PEOPLE MOVEING AWAY. EVEN IF i DON`T TALK TO THEM. ANY CHANGEING NO MATTER HOW SMALL MAKES ME DEPRESSED, ODD HUH , SORRY YOU ALLWAYS HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS PMDD IN YOUR LIFE, AND HOPE YOU CAN GET BACK SOME OF YOUR LIFE.. HANG IN THERE. HUGS,ANN
It really does sound like the PMDD... try to know that, and ignore the \"PMDD talk\" in your emotions and head thinking. Are you on the meds for it? How you feeling about it?
dusty i am but it seem like that every time i see the light at the end of the tunnel it a filpping train coming again..i just wish at time i could cut all ties with my family (my dad) but i cant do that and i dont understand why i cant