ive got to move on

joined today as im finding life very hard at the mo,my husband of 21 years left me over a year ago for the 9th time.but this time have found out hes been seeing xitch for 8 months and hes moving away from his 2 children next week 4 hors away to be with her.iwas coping (just)and we were talking and texting,he sounded confused,last week he spent the week there looking 4 a job ready 4 his new life but spoke to me quite alot and sounded really down.then when he came home on sunday he said we need to talk,he came round and we had a nice evening talking about what went wrong 4 us and how things would be differant if we got back together.he said he was confused and was unsure what he wanted,he left saying he needed time.monay morning he text me to say hed bin up all night thinking and hed finished with xich and to tell the kids hes not leaving.tuesday told me they are back together and hes going again.wed told me not to contact him any more as i make him feel guilty.