Itty Bitty Sh*ty committee is working overtime.

ibsc IS WORKING over time in my head again trying to get me back to the same addictive thought patterns.  90 meetings in 90 days is a lot to attend but I suppose I've gotten so far off the mark socially I cannot understand where I'm at.  I guess, I'm not really sure.  I'm at a loss as to why God gives us a soul and then gives us the decision to take care of it.  Why cannot just accepting Jesus be enough, why does he demand that we follow him when it gets so freaking hard!!!!