Its true what they say: I am healthy!
Short one ...I will not torture you all today! I had an epiphany this week, after a week of anxiety and fear...and way too many doctor appointments, I'm finally starting to except that I am not "sickly" I'm not fragile and weak, I am healthy... I am a young healthy girl... there is nothing wrong with me! After months of worrying about the countless things I "could" have or things that "might" happen, its finally sinking in... that those things didnt happen and that I need except that I had this P.E. bc something altered my body, stupid birth control. Hey, and even as scary as this thought is if I clot again, ill still be a healthy person, just a healthy person that has to take coumadin...Im not sickly and dying. This weeks positive doctor appointments has totally inspired me to get my ass back on the treadmill and to eat right and too drop some lbs...bc the only negitive thing was that I gained 6 lbs ahhh.. the holidays suck! But im gunna get on this horse, and add to my healthy-ness and drop the extra weight. I feel enlightened, like someone just opened my mind right now woohoo Im ok! Im still real messd up in the head though...that will take time, but im happy to work on it!