ITS TIME TO GIVE MYSELF A SLAP.

After not hearing from him monday and i knew he took the kids home i did a stupid thing and text him to see how he was.(NO REPLY)So i text again yesterday morning to say i was worried about him and could he let me know he was ok,Of course ive heard nothing.Why did i let him talk me into staying friends and him calling and texting me if all he was gonna do was kick me in the teeth again? Hes obviously back with his ex so why dont he have the guts to just text me and say they are back together so dont contact him again ? Yet again hes made me feel crap so why do i miss him so much????