Its time for Myself.

I have had a tough day; Nothing was working out right. I have decided that I want to start finding another job. My current job is a toxic environment and people pleasing. Its a destructive habit that has been with me for years plus not speaking up for myself. I used to believe that not standing up for yourself means that you are being arrogant and aggressive. Now I know that speaking up for yourself is beneficial to you as a person.

I don't know how to do it. I was so reliant on people doing it for me. Now that I am older, I have to start doing it for myself. Back to my job, the only people appreciating the work that I do are the customers. My co-workers are selfish and are cliqueish. I don't like cliques nor follow them. I have started to put my resume out there and believe that I will find a new job soon. I can no longer shovel snow and work under dangerous circumstances. Luckily for me, I have cut and bruised myself. Now I have to be very concerned about my health and well being.

Yes it was a tough day, it had given me the realization that I deserve better and need to stop pleasing people who don't care at all for me. That is the mentality in this nation today and no wonder that people are upset. Now I am going to spend the rest of the day pleasing myself and doing that for the rest of my life.