Its not what it seems

Well, Spanky still hasn't called.  Rayna goes to court this Friday but who knows if she will get out or not.  He is excited to have her home i've heard.  He claims that he is not going to marry her. We will see.  Found out that Larry put a curse on SPank so he will never come back ro talk to me again.  That really hurt and we ended up getting into a HUGE argument to where I just about got fired.  Its not fair for him to run my life.  He claims that he reversed the hex and things should be back to the way they were before the hex.  We will see about that too.   Got invited to Misty's (Spank's cousin) for an after Turkey day dinner.  Didn't know that it was going to be a family dinner though.  Aunt V and Eddie, Chad, Tracy and the boys, Chandi and the boys, Eric's dad and step mom, Eric and Misty were there.  They said that it was the Littell family Thanksgiving dinner.  They planned the Christmas dinner and I got invited to that too.  I feel so loved by them.  Its one good thing that has come out of me being with Spank.  His parents were invited but didn't want to be out too late.  Won't everybody be suprised to hear that I was there!  The Lanfair family Christmas party is supposed to be on the 20th but they don't have a place to have it right now.  Looks like it mite not happen this year.  Gave Aunt V ideas for next Christmas or the family reunion for 2009.  Hope I will be going to both of them this next year with my favorite Lanfair.  That is if he can get his head out of his ass and get his life back in line.   I miss the hell out of Spank but he has alot of decisions to make and his life to get back in order.  Is is a turn on to have a girlfriend who does jail time?  Does he not want a stable relationship and to make his life better?  Im confused but for now I just have to worry about things that surround me.  I have Jay back as a full time friend now since Joanie left him.  Maybe we can spend the holidays together a little to make it easier for the both of us.  His ex, Amy, is trying to get back into the picture.  It would be good for him if that's what he wants.  Told him to take it slow (at least until AFTER New Years!! I'm so evil)  I'm hoping that maybe Jay, Sean, and his woman could go out for New Years this year.  I'd love to be with Spanky but I dont think it will happen, and not really in 2009 either.  We started 2008 being torn apart by others and that is how it went for the entire year.  30 days and counting.  We will see if Spank does the every 2 month thing in at least 3.5-4 weeks.  Doubt he will this time.  We'll see if he proves me wrong.