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im not exactly good at speaking about emmotions and feelings but i wanted to try this platform out ,so here i am. I have a bad tendancy to hold in alot of emmotions even if i should talk to someone about. ive tried in the past to talk to people and ask for help but for its never really done much for me so after a while of trying to ask people fror help i decided its not really worth getting disappointed or get laughed at again.I tell myself that i dont need to be happy and that i can survive on my own but for some time now its honestly become alot to handle. maybe im being rediculous but im just tired of being where am, living the way i am.