Its gonna be hard for me tomorrow... and other stuff

Tho hotspot is broken. I secretly am using Ericas internet. I will try to still be on here but idk if I will be able to cause she might catch me on her wifi. I will try tho


My sister's graduation is at the church my friends funeral was in. My dad told me to prepare me and I started sobbing. I might not be able to even step foot in there. I am scared and hurting.


I bought Tatum his fav soday and candy. I had Erica text his mom. :) I also got a card.


Alr I gtg.  Talk y'all when I can

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CaliforniaItalianlover
CaliforniaItalianlover

That's gonna be hard to go to the graduation knowing that's where your friends funeral was.

It's gonna bring back memories. Hope you are able to get through it.

I'm so sorry that your hurting. It's normal to feel that way. You lost a friend.

I'll be praying and thinking about you tomorrow. I hope your able to enjoy your sisters graduation.

Glad you were able to buy Tatum some goodies.

When your able try to keep us all updated on how your doing.

Hugs
Nutin_Special
Nutin_Special

Good luck getting on and everything. If the wifi is limited I can understand but I don't think it cost much for unlimited unless your parents don't consolidate assets. Look at me, I sound smart. Lol. Icr with the church. You'll be surprised how reading something like that puts your mind back to that time. I can only imagine having to go back there. Mama didn't say but we stopped going to church just after daddy died. Probably why. Sitting there looking at the alter and trying to not see his coffin sitting there. It's traumatic fs. Hugs sis. XOXO
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

It scares me and none of my family understands. I dont wanna go. What if im not able to walk in there without instantly crying? Just thinking about it im crying.
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

I am gonna be there at 3:30 till like 7
Ladybug7
Ladybug7

I'm so sorry that you have to return to the church where your friend's funeral was held. It's totally understandable that you feel emotional. It's OK if you cry. Your family may not understand, but others will, if you let them know the reason you're sad. You'll be in my thoughts tomorrow afternoon, and I just said a prayer for you.

I'm glad you were able to learn about Tatum's favorite soda and candy. (Just curious...what are they?) Good to hear that you were able to get a card, too.

Big hugs.
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

I posted this journal last night. The graduation is today. I am struggling

His favorite soda is Root beer (just like me!!) and his favorite candy is Albanese Gummy Bears. I wrote in the card today and Becca said be careful with what I write in there just in case his mom sees it. I told her I was being careful and told her what I wrote and then she asked to sign it. She wrote "Happy Birthday T.T." So cute! She is being nice and helping me.
Nutin_Special
Nutin_Special

That's great. I would have guessed Dr. Pepper. I'll be on tonight after my graduation. I'm going to be in high school after tonight. <3 good luck at your graduation and the church visit. Hugs.
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

Thank you. I might be back late tonight. I was told it might end around 8pm and we might go to dinner
Nutin_Special
Nutin_Special

Same here.
Kiwasicu
Kiwasicu

I'm sorry that you have to do that. I hope you will be ok.

I love your gift to Tatum. Sounds yummy! =D
AnxietyLife09
AnxietyLife09

Thx