Its come down to this

I went to my pdoc's and was upfront and confessed how I was feeling. I told him that I was severely depressed and want to die. I said how nice it would be to be dead..no worries, pain, bills, nothing just dead. I meant every word. Now if you were a psychiatrist and a patient told you those things what would you do? Wouldn't you try to find out why I was feeling that way? Well that didn't happen..I spent a total of less than 5 minutes in his office, enough time to tell him I was want to die. He didn't try to counsel me, or find out what was wrong. I left pissed off and feeling worse than before. I have been researching a new pdoc..I made a call to my insurance company to find providers. I called one. I have to wait for a screening call now. I have other options though. I just shake my head in disbelief that after 20+ years with him he'd wanna do something...what a waste!