its been a while

well, it's has been a long time since my last entry...to update, i haven't had anxiety for such a long time now, i can almost say i'm better.it definately doesn't rule my life the way it used to. my fear of meds still goes on, but i think if i really needed them i could do it. i always wanted to just go out and have a good night with my friends and have a few drinks without freaking out, and friday night, i did just that, i was out dancing all night and at one point i stood back and realised i had been drinking all night and was having a great time, then i thought uh oh what if when i go home i start freaking out, but when i got home i was fine too, and for some reason the alcohol made it so that i couldn't sleep, so i had a little bit of a cry because i was soooo tired and just couldn't sleep but i was fine, not even a glimpse of anxiety. then the next day i thought i would have the hangover from hell. but nup, i felt great!now, i know ppl have different ways of dealing with their anxiety, but the thing that ended the worst of the anxiety is losing the fear of it, i just accepted that anxiety is just anxiety. and when i feel it coming on, i make it a point not to be afraid, i smile, and say i'm not afraid of this anymore!! and it's a common fact that without the fear of it, anxiety cannot survive, it feeds on your fears, and if you are not afraid it can't scare you!!i hope everyone on DS gets better! lots of love and hope to all.