its back

depression is back full force. fought tears all day at work.  tried to find places to hide to cry.  cries in my car at lunch.  confronted someone about being excluded from the poliana, he gave a bunch of excuses including I don't participate in anything, i responded that he doesn't invite me to anything.  told him it really hurt and walked out to lunch.  felt sad that I had to where my heart out like that and say it, but it was overdue.  it hurt bad while i'm standing on the phone and they all started premade poliana slips like I wasn't there.