Its August

Well it is now August, getting any amount of hours i can from work , i just hope that i wont go under 30 . So in the meantime I have several things going and several things in a holding pattern. 

The holding pattern is the background waiting for a lawyer to take my case so I may move further along in my life. like finding a better job. 

i havent made any progress about my family they pretty much have been on the quiet side of things. sorry to say i wasnt able to be there to cellabrate Roberts birthday, i just hope he liked the game card i sent him along with the birthday card . Even though i heard that my two daughters were complaining about it but i look at things this way they both have jobs Robert and Vanne dont and they probally look forward to the game cards..

This Friday im going to find out how much of a balance merle has on the accounts maybe i can pay one of them off for her. 

As for my transitioning im a step closer in starting , did the lab work and got the results back so i called the Endocrynoligist to let them know i will take any cancellations that might come up before the Sept 10 appointment I just pray for the day to come.

As for Ryland and I we finally set a date for a girls outting of shopping , golden coral and AC . maybe go to a bar in AC just for fun.

still no paper work for the divorce in which i should start it in this state at least i wont need her signature to sign. 

As for Rose and Selenia , i havent heard from Rose if she is for real, as for Selenia im still chatting with her and she keeps telling me that she wants to be part of my life but the age i dont know . i have met other trans people but they seem to be inside the closet and not comming out that much or into calling. 

in the long run i feel very happy on what i have accomplished in the last three months and starting to feel the peace that i long strived for . 

Cont.

I have ran into a little snag , after the results came in about the blood work the endocrinologist did a complete u turn on me telling me that I needed a note from a therapist to grant him the go ahead for me starting my HRT. I was completely upset and was trying to figure out how to get one, but I was thinking do I really want him to treat me , or give me the proper care I needed during my transitioning?  But then I decided to got a hold of a counselor at the Mazzoni Center to see what kind of help they could offer. So I got a few numbers and managed to get an appointment for today 08/14 at the clinic in Widener  university chester city,  I hope and pray I walk out with the scripts.  Keeping u informed.