Its all ok

Another Monday!!! I had a difficult week-end with myself. So how does one do that? Easy, just started thinking to hard, digging deep within myself looking for answers. Makes me nuts trying to self improve everything at one time. Totally emotionally exhusting. Just trying to get things right with myself. I have gone back to people that I have felt I have wronged in the past and ask them to please forgive me. So far I have been a very luck person. Most of these people have gotten back to me and said they didn't really know what I was talking about, and that there is no problem. Just some simple things for the mort part like losing my temper or being short with them. I just felt I needed to come clean for things that have bothered me in my past so I could move forward. Sounds stupid I know, but my therapist told me he thought it would be helpful for me emotionally. That was my lesson for the week. Good thing is I slept like a baby last night after I put it all out there. So it wasn't all bad. I put my front garden together. Had a ball playing in the dirt, and it now looks so nice. Had the boy next store mow the lawn, and grabbed a man from down the street to come edge it all. So the entire front lawn looks great. I planted a jamine tree by the front door and evey time I walk in and out it smells wonderful and its so pretty with its pink flowers. Went out on two dates, one on Saturday. Went ok, but the guy was having a problem with my wedding ring. Sorry, I'll take it off when I am good and ready to and not because someone doesn't care for it. I was honest up front that I still wore it. I guess over the phone or by e-mail its ok, but in person it isn't. The last person before him wanted to buy me a new ring to wear. Took me to a store and everything. Its like I don't even know you, I could never except a gift such as that from someone that I had only gone out with a few times. Sweet?? No, I'm just not ready to remove it. What is it they don't understand about that. Then I went out for just a drink yesterday afternoon, the conversation dragged. Not a good sign for a first date. Add alcohol and he opened up a bit. Nice man, he was younger then me but looked 10 years older. We were doing ok until he told me he lives with his sister, and before that his son. Looks like he just travels from one family member to another to live off of them. Sorry, that's not for me. I like a man that can at least take responsiblity for himself. I spent to many years supporting a man. I want one that can support him self as I can do for myself. So time for me to get working here. Monday's are always long days, and I am still so far behind. Planning on taking off either this week-end or the next week-end  for Laughlin. The river should be just perfect and I like sitting in this one 5 star resturant and watching the jet skiers and the river boats while enjoying a wonderfully expensive glass of champane. I keep trying to remember to spoil myself.