Its a step.

I had my appointment yesterday with the counselor to get me started on the right road to a pscyatrist and the talk was good and then he asked if he could read my journal that i took with me and as he read he was getting worried and more worried as he went further in and he asked if i wanted to be hospitalized and i said that i had thought about it but couldnt do so because i would lose the only job that i can physically do anymore but he called someone down from the hospital anyways to come in and talk to me. and he asked me if i wanted to go as well and i got real anxious and almost just ran out but i sat down and talked it out and now they are rushing me into the therapist so that she can rush me into the psyciotrist to get some meds started....so heres hopeing for a positive reaction come monday.