Its a really bad day
Honey, I am back. I don't think I can do this anymore without u by my side. I know I need to be here for the kids but they really don't want me they would rather have u. U r all I want ,cant sleep right cant eat right and list goes on I need u so much.U r my everything it don't seem right to be here without u. U were the only one that has loved me for me and that has been there for everything. Chris I just don't think they took the right person it should of been me .All I want to do is cry and cry some more. I feel like I have no reasoning for living anymore. I never never thought it would feel like my heart breaks into a million piece every time I turn around I know I love u with all my heart but it hurts all the time. I use to think it was bad when u worked late in the shop but that is nothing like now. I hope one day it will get easier to deal with . This week we have been together for 13 yrs and it sucks cause I cant share a good time with u.Babe I love u so much and u don't forget that ok . I will see u again some day and when that day comes I will never let u go for any reason. U r my whole world and than some. Love always ur wife
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so much of what you have written mirrora ll I felt when i lost Greg. I thought over and over again about the grave mistake made in tking him and not me. I KNEW that the world would be better off if it had been me who went.
And loving him and wanted so desparately to have him back because I just could not even think about another day without him.
Dear friend. KNOW that you WILL get through this as much as you think you will not now.
Day by day...every day you wake up is a day you have survived. then day by day everyday you will get stronger, and the love you shared with him will give you more strength than you ever imagined it would.
I cannot promise you the whens, but can promise that if you hang on through this...the will will HAPPEN. Because of that same love.
BIG HUGS and understanding Diane
Oh, boy I feel that...it rips me apart..........now I am going to youtube and watch good near death experiences..because I am so sad after reading that. I am grateful he went before me though...if one had to go, because I am the tougher one...and I wanted to be able to take care of him..my little pumpkin :) Hang in there...I bet you are a fine mom :)
Wish I had my Frank\'s kids :) xoxo