It was good while it lasted!!

Well today I found out that my ex hus is out of jail, stupid me tried to talk to a friend that just couldnt understand where I was coming from! I felt so safe while he was in jail! I want to feel that way.. I know he hasnt tried to come after me but it feels like he could at any time and if you havent been thru something like this u just cant understand! I know I dont have itas bad as some ppl but I still have that fear there.. I just want to feel safe and normal..