It still haunts me

Today i was thinking back to when i was in the third grade. I was picked on alot from the third to the 6th/7th grade. I was picked on mostly by boys. I dont know for some reason they chose me as their target although i wouldnt like it if they picked on anyone else. No one deserves to be bullied. Its eating me alive, i want to get rid of the memories but i cant. The boys would play jokes on me by pretending to like me, made fun of how i looked, even mocked me. I would cherish the times when school was over because when i went home i thought to my self " they cant get me here" and i considered the weekends to be my favorite part of the week because i never saw them, i thought of them as a holiday. I was so terrified i didnt want to go back to school. I had no idea what they were going to do or say next. what makes me angry is how people cant see this in schools. If someone is getting beat up, they will stand and watch. I hope that because of my experiences with bullies, i can bring awareness and hope that in time it will come to and end.