It\'s time...

"We have to fight them daily, like fleas, those many small worries about the morrow, for they sap our energies." – Etty Hillesum Last week I laughed so hard I had tears streaming down my cheeks and I could hardly breathe. I hadn’t laughed like that in quite some time. I felt so great after that. Laughing is so therapeutic. I think in life sometimes with all the stress and all the problems we get hung up we forget to laugh. So…for me…find something that amuses you and really let yourself go…just laugh!  So, I have been back and forth on if I am going to visit Ohio. All the doubts nagging at me- Am I ready for this reckoning? If I back out will I regret? Will this damage me further or set me free? For me I just don’t know. I have prayed upon it and meditated on it. I did a tarot card reading for my own amusement. I have been up and down, in and out about it all. One day I am going and the next day I feel so powered to go. As of now I am going. Tomorrow we shall see…and on the 20th when I leave…well…we shall see.  Until then I am acting like I am going. I am cramming 3 modules into a week and a half so I will be done up until Dec 5th. I want to be able to enjoy the trip and Thanksgiving. Not to mention I am not sure how I am going to be mentally.  Yeah I am nervous…and excited…and scared…and overwhelmed but I think it’s time.  I hope all of you are well! ~Bright Blessings~Rea

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My sister and my daughter and I can laugh till we hurt, at just silly things. It is so much fun when we get together. I wish they were closer.

I don\'t know what\'s in Ohio but just take a few minutes by yourself and think it out. The benifits of going and the reasons you would not want to. Take a deep breath and think it out and the answer will come to you. Don\'t forget how fast time fly\'s. Good luck, and re-read what your message for the day is. Naomi xo
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Thank you Naomi! Ohio is where I am originally from and where my \"family\" is. My Grammie (the only one in my family who really loved this black sheep) passed away in March. I will be going up to her grave, collect what she willed to be, and visit a friend of mine. Ohio just holds so much hurt and pain for me. Part of me doesnt ever want to look back but another part knows I have to stay \"goodbye\" in order to move forward.