It's now July

It's now July , and nothing has changed, I haven't been able to get my hernia repaired as she promised after the wedding,  the pop shots are more frequent,  and also about finding a job,  another min wage job, only to have employers say they r hiring only to find out they r not, but I get her saying that I don't care and don't go back, the newest one is I went back to one spoke to the same person, telling me a story about before he transferred to the store the previous person hired people , but it is funny she tells me that she got a phone call from the manager that he wasn't in the store, but I wonder if the person I saw twice is an imposter lol, I'm going to find out , but I might as well end things as she was talking to her gf about moving , driving here and there, without even mentioning me ,so I take it as I won't be going , I want to leave only to have my anxiety get the best of me,  I want to have a good paying job, but she won help me clear my name for me to land one, but I don't care about the family in her eyes