It's Not Easy, but I'm Trying to Stay Hopeful ...
The Beginning of this New Year wasn't too Good for Me at First. To begin just a couple of Days after January 1st, I caught a Very Bad Cold somehow. I don't know how really since it's not like I go Out Anywhere. I'm Always just Here - at Home. But, Who Knows I suppose.. I guess it could have come from One of the Drivers for the Meals On Wheels service that I get Mon. through Fridays. But however I got it, it's sure been a Pain to try to get rid of. It's almost February now, and I'm STILL not Completely over it ! I'm a LOT better than I was though, Thank Goodness. During the Worst times of it I couldn't really Breathe without Coughing My Head off ! Now, I can Actually Sleep through the Night Again without Coughing ALL Night Long ! That was getting Old, as You can imagine.
All of that was Bad Enough to deal with. Then on Top of that You have to Add that I hadn't Heard from a Very Good Friend in a Long While. I hate it when I haven't heard from Him, since it I can't help that it makes Me Feel as If He's Pushing Me Away.. .or that Maybe He's sort of Trying to " Forget Me ", or something like that. My Mind can imagine the Worst of Things. It's a Curse brought on from having Way Too Much Time on My Hands, since I don't Work due to My Bad Knees. Anyways... New Year's Eve came, and I hadn't heard from My Good Friend since around My Birthday - which was December 6th. So You might as well say it had been almost a Month since I had last Talked to My Good Friend. I know that He has a Busy Schedule, and I always Try to be Patient about that. But when You Live Alone, and Long to hear a Friendly Voice it makes being Patient Very difficult. Thankfully, I think He truly Understands all of this. So at least I'm glad He doesn't take My " anxiousness " the Wrong Way, and let it create a Wall of Negativity between Us. That's the Very Last thing I'd want to happen. I don't Ever Want to Lose His Friendship. He's a Part of My Life I can't be Without. I'm Sure Most of You out There have had Dear Friends like that Before.
I'm doing a Bit Better Now, since I Finally got a Phone Call from Him Last Saturday. It was So GREAT hearing from Him ! I Love the Sound of His Voice ! We had a pretty Long Conversation. It was Terrific ! It meant More than Words can Truly say to Me. Before He said His Goodbye, He said that He'd Call Me Monday Night. Well, He Goofed again ! LOL I can only Guess what Happened, but I think it'd be Safe to assume that He simply got Too Busy, or maybe even Too Tired, from Work to Call Me like He said He Would. Should I be Mad at Him ? I know Some would say " Yes " ! But, I don't see the Point in that. He means too Much to Me for Me to be Angry at Him for anything. I just can't Stay Upset at Him. I care for Him too Much, and have too Much Hope for the Future. I Hope that the Future will bring My Greatest Dream fulfilled, and Him and I will be " Together " as I feel We are Meant to Be. I've felt that deep in My Heart, and Soul, ever since I first Met Him. Ever since the First Conversation We had, I felt Like He was the " ONE " that would finally Complete the Missing Piece in My Heart. He is the Missing Piece to the Puzzle of My Life, of that I have No Doubt.
So Day after Day I hang onto HOPE... it is My Life Preserver, and My Light that Directs Me through the Fog of My Life. I Believe that " Things " Will BE if They are Meant to Be... and This is Something I feel is " Meant to Be ". The Trick is You have to Remember that it will be in It's Own Time, and Not Yours. Things happen when They happen... when They're supposed to, and Not a Minute Before.
This is Why I feel that it's Not Wrong to Hold onto HOPE, especially when that HOPE helps You to be Strong, and be Patient... while Waiting on FATE to Finally Play the Cards You've been Wanting it to Play for so Long.
All of that was Bad Enough to deal with. Then on Top of that You have to Add that I hadn't Heard from a Very Good Friend in a Long While. I hate it when I haven't heard from Him, since it I can't help that it makes Me Feel as If He's Pushing Me Away.. .or that Maybe He's sort of Trying to " Forget Me ", or something like that. My Mind can imagine the Worst of Things. It's a Curse brought on from having Way Too Much Time on My Hands, since I don't Work due to My Bad Knees. Anyways... New Year's Eve came, and I hadn't heard from My Good Friend since around My Birthday - which was December 6th. So You might as well say it had been almost a Month since I had last Talked to My Good Friend. I know that He has a Busy Schedule, and I always Try to be Patient about that. But when You Live Alone, and Long to hear a Friendly Voice it makes being Patient Very difficult. Thankfully, I think He truly Understands all of this. So at least I'm glad He doesn't take My " anxiousness " the Wrong Way, and let it create a Wall of Negativity between Us. That's the Very Last thing I'd want to happen. I don't Ever Want to Lose His Friendship. He's a Part of My Life I can't be Without. I'm Sure Most of You out There have had Dear Friends like that Before.
I'm doing a Bit Better Now, since I Finally got a Phone Call from Him Last Saturday. It was So GREAT hearing from Him ! I Love the Sound of His Voice ! We had a pretty Long Conversation. It was Terrific ! It meant More than Words can Truly say to Me. Before He said His Goodbye, He said that He'd Call Me Monday Night. Well, He Goofed again ! LOL I can only Guess what Happened, but I think it'd be Safe to assume that He simply got Too Busy, or maybe even Too Tired, from Work to Call Me like He said He Would. Should I be Mad at Him ? I know Some would say " Yes " ! But, I don't see the Point in that. He means too Much to Me for Me to be Angry at Him for anything. I just can't Stay Upset at Him. I care for Him too Much, and have too Much Hope for the Future. I Hope that the Future will bring My Greatest Dream fulfilled, and Him and I will be " Together " as I feel We are Meant to Be. I've felt that deep in My Heart, and Soul, ever since I first Met Him. Ever since the First Conversation We had, I felt Like He was the " ONE " that would finally Complete the Missing Piece in My Heart. He is the Missing Piece to the Puzzle of My Life, of that I have No Doubt.
So Day after Day I hang onto HOPE... it is My Life Preserver, and My Light that Directs Me through the Fog of My Life. I Believe that " Things " Will BE if They are Meant to Be... and This is Something I feel is " Meant to Be ". The Trick is You have to Remember that it will be in It's Own Time, and Not Yours. Things happen when They happen... when They're supposed to, and Not a Minute Before.
This is Why I feel that it's Not Wrong to Hold onto HOPE, especially when that HOPE helps You to be Strong, and be Patient... while Waiting on FATE to Finally Play the Cards You've been Wanting it to Play for so Long.
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