It's not always easy
I have been dealing with this battle for so many years and it's not always easy to open up about it. I was fine yesterday and I had a really nice day full of laughter and smiles and then today is a totally different story. I woke up in a bad mood and very upset about several different things and I haven't decided how I am going to handle it yet.. I am beyond upset with little things that keep on building and it really is a daily battle for me to overcome all of this depression. I get so angry when people tell me there is nothing to be upset about but yet they don't live my life and have the problems that I do on a daily basis. I have been worrying about bills and how they are going to get paid and all he can tell me is baby we are ok broke but ok. I am mad because he can play fantasy football and that gets paid for but yet that is a hobby that is not a bill that is not a job and I get stuck with all the respectability all on my shoulders and I get to worry about everything. I do not think for one minute that it's ok for you to do that to me when I have done nothing but help and I get nothing in return. My granddaddy used to tell me after my parents divorce that sometimes love just isn't enough to get you through the hard times and the good times. I grew up way to fast because I had no choice and I am very responsible and I always make sure the bills get paid before I go out and do anything fun or take an interest in a hobby... I am to angry to write anymore I will continue later
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comforting hugs. Hi niece Heather. i am so glad and thankful you are writing. this is very healing, and is going to help you so much, with your healing. :) You are a wonderfully strong and dedicated person, and have lots of spirit, and are going to make it through these times. :) You\'re so special to us all, and we want you to be ok. :) i really hope, that Chad will take on some of the responsibilities with you, and that you both will have much more peaceful days. :) We appreciate your special friendship, and i am so proud of you for taking time to write. it can be so healing, and theraputic to write, to let our emotions flow freely through our writings. relationships like you mentioned, should always be equal, and both in the relationship need to take responsibilities, like you mentioned. :) i\'m always here, anytime you need too talk. take all the time you need. :) i truly believe, and i know with all of my heart, that you are on the road to healing, and that you have so many more peaceful times coming up to look forward too. :) i love you niece Heather. :)