It's is so Hard to go through

My flashbacks and dreams are getting more real.
I see people talking to me and It is very eye opening.
It's weird to have a totally different life from what you remember.
Some of my flashbacks , I see in my dreams.
My struggles are daily. My battles are daily.
I like to put the pieces together. What I have
In my mind is scary. I have been through it. Though scary
I feel God would not put on me more than I can handle.
He knows I am ready. I think it would make
Anyone think you were crazy. I have had a full life.
I just can't wait to see how God will bless it.
He can turn what Satan and the world want for
Evil. He can make it turn out beautifully. He will redeem
And make me whole and give me peace. I am blessed, God
Has given me much more than I deserve.
I am thankful for remembering because I feel safe.
I am thankful for being able to know that I can
See what I repressed and made me forget.
It is giving me pieces of me no matter how hard
To see. It's my life. It's my story . There are some things
May never remember, God has my back. He is my redeemer
I am so glad for being born. I am glad for my life!