I have been listening to webinars and watching online interviews by life coaches. And in more than three of them, the speaker stated that women have a tendency to withdraw from family and friends when they are struggling with different issues such as self-esteem, unlucky in love, protecting themselves from being hurt by people again, etc. because we fear being judged and/or feeling weak. (In addition, they all said that there is a lot of power in being vulnerable.) I must admit I can relate and have been having a hard time today with feeling broken, unloveable and like a failure in life. And while listening to these female coaches speak of their experiences, I felt like they were looking into the window of my life. Therefore, I could not fight the tears anymore nor take suffering alone. So I texted a woman in my community whom helped me with food, told her that I was struggling and to pray for me. And the interesting thing is that I felt free and better that I reached out regardless of whether she judged me or not. I am proud of myself for taking a risk and giving myself the right to say that "I am not okay". Sigh. I don't know what is in the future for me but I do know that I have to try to advocate for myself in getting the help I need.