It's cold here without you!

Good morning sweetheart,
 
What a mess it is today. Been awake since 5. Sleet hitting the window behind my/your chair. With wind chill we are about 12 degrees but will be getting to below zero. The winds now are at 57 MPH. King needed to go out around 7. I put him on his leash. That always brings up warm/sad memories. It was Baron’s & then Duke’s. Looks as good as new except where King, our bad seed, chewed it. I did not want to let him out in his yard as there was ice on those steps. Yesterday I let him out the sewing room door and when I blinked he chased a squirrel on that bad leg. He didn’t understand being on the leash but finally did his thing. I was covered in sleet. I decided it was not worth taking the trash out. Next week will be fine. Since I started this the wind chills are now down to zero. DART has even shut down in Dallas and of course the airport is for the most part shut down. Made me glad that you did not have to be flying or trying to get home from a trip. I keep praying that we will not lose power. A lot of folks in DFW are without. I have a space heater going in mom’s upstairs bathroom. I am thinking about making my way up there today. The water is shut off but I’m thinking about flushing the toilets in case I cannot get in up there safely later. If the heat goes off the ice could freeze in the tanks & bowls. I sure don’t want them breaking. Remember the one year I slipped on the ice & laid there for quite awhile before I could get up? My head just missed her block wall. At least then you or she would have missed me. Now no one would miss me for days.  I'm sure a lot of the country is laughing at us for shutting down the city for a little ice & snow.  We are just not equipt for it.  You living in NY for so long made you safe on the roads but you always had to watch out for the rest of us.  
I just turned the heater down. The door had blown open so I put some boxes up against it hung a blanket over it. Turned the heater down but did not light the fire because they are now predicting this crap will hang around until Friday & there might even be another storm coming behind this one. I will save the wood. My BIG fear is our waterline. Baby, watch over that for me. OK? I have sweats on, Mom’s robe & my electric throw on me so I cut the pellet stove way back. If this keeps up I will run out of pellets. I miss you so very much. At times like this I feel so lost. Even when you couldn’t do some of the things around here you could give me advice. I thank God that there are a lot of things I know how to do. Growing up on a farm helped. The wind is blowing so hard right now that I better check and see if I put enough boxes in front of that door. I must get the house leveler back. You understand what that will mean…. I love you babe & wish you were here. I was thinking yesterday that it was wrong of me. I should be wishing that I was there with you. Why do we hang on to this life? Ask Jesus to keep us safe. I will always be yours. Heart & Soul!!   V
PS I was cleaning out one of my desk drawers yesterday & I found a letter from you. It was written in 2008. I had been questioning myself for days. Did you really know how much I love you? That letter addressed that very question. You assured me that you did. You said that you did not understand why but that you knew how very much I loved you. Thank you for leading me to that letter in my time of doubt.

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lindanne
lindanne

Oh my what weather! Sounds like you have things under control. I sure know the feeling of doing things by yourself when you used to have a husband that was sure to take care of all your needs. How nice to find the letter, it is bitterly sweet I am sure. Hang in there, surely spring is on the way. Be well, Lindanne
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deleted_user

How sweet to find that letter. I often wonder if Dan knew how much I loved him. I don\'t think he did. I don\'t think I really knew how much I truly loved him. I know I will never find anything written by him like that - but it sounds wonderful. Stay warm. I know what you are dealing with. I am 6 hours North of you in Oklahoma and we have a record snowfall today. You stay safe and I will be praying for your waterline, warmth, safety, and all your other concerns.
Angie