It's been awhile.

I am still around. I have made some improvements to my mental health status BUT at what cost. After 11 years of in and out court with my ex and her ways of destroying me, her two sons, her sister, her parents and on and on aond on...I was awarded Jakob F/C F/P. 

In the mean time my physical body became more imobile which is frustrating because I am one who likes to be on the go. SS is now paying our way and it has allowed me to move out from my father and sister and into an apartment with Jakob.

I cannot control Jakob to do just the basics so he can become stronger as a man, a public person, a sympathetic person.

Just last Friday my oldest son was takeng to jail for child abuse. From what he says he did and the markings on the body it doesn't match up. He admitted to his ex and the lawyer of what he did and they produced pictures of scratches all over his neck and back and legs. SCRATCHES! My son left a bruise when he was carrying him wrong because he was paying more attention to his damn phone than he was to his son.

This cost me a $1000 to bail him out after two days. The Judge found it to be not enough eveidence because he has many babysitters before he goes back to his mother; including my ex-wife (Joey's ex-mom) who wants nothing to do with her two sons. AND....She is sitting in the courtroom with Joey's Ex-girlfried.

I should just keep unloading it feels so good. My Therapy sessions are coming to an end I don't feel any better with her.

I...will try to remeber to come and write some more.  J.