It\'s been a tough weekend

 Well...here it is.  The end of summer and what have I done?  Not really enjoyed it like I thought I would.  My daughter's wedding is less than two weeks away and I'm sad.  I have to do whatever it takes to muster up my energy to be happy....my family will be here celebrating so I plan to enjoy them to the fullest! But the holidays like this one are hard and I'm not looking forward to Thanksgiving and Xmas.  I don't know how I'm going to get through it.  Maybe I should just go away by myself or with my son.   My daughter and son-in-law were in this weekend so it was great to have them here.  Everyone was over on Saturday and we had a great time.  Then there are down times...what do you do then?  That is when your mind starts to wander.....they wanted to go to an outdoor festival but I told them that I didn't want to run into him.  I just can't face it right now....maybe someday.  I'm trying.... I need lots of prayers....