It's been a rough year!
So ts been a bad year the last time iwrote I was talking about my mom
finding out that she had cancer it appeared after her long bad with 4chemo treatment it seemed that nothing was working and on September 15 iwent with her to an appt were
her doctor told us that there is nothing we can do and to prepare ourselves that my mom is not getting better and she will soon die.
When she found out that I lost my mind so many things were going through my head, how can I survive without my mom, I can live without her here. Just basically everthing bad I could think of I was.
So we were thankful for everyday that we did have.
We had let me think...16 days left with my mom. She dies 16 days later after we found out she wouldn't get better. Atleast we had more time, if I knew we only had that short of time I would have said more and told her I love you everyday. The tragic thing other than my mom dying is that she died on my birthday!
Now if someone can tell me how to deal with that I'm open to suggstions.
I'm slowly dealing with it I thnk th only thing that breaks my heart is my dad.
I can't stand to see him cry or be heartbroken all I want to do is fix his pain and I think that if I can fix his pain then he can help me. So if anyone can give me some insight if you have gone through this pain as well inwould really Luke to know your stories and how you dealt or dealing with it.
finding out that she had cancer it appeared after her long bad with 4chemo treatment it seemed that nothing was working and on September 15 iwent with her to an appt were
her doctor told us that there is nothing we can do and to prepare ourselves that my mom is not getting better and she will soon die.
When she found out that I lost my mind so many things were going through my head, how can I survive without my mom, I can live without her here. Just basically everthing bad I could think of I was.
So we were thankful for everyday that we did have.
We had let me think...16 days left with my mom. She dies 16 days later after we found out she wouldn't get better. Atleast we had more time, if I knew we only had that short of time I would have said more and told her I love you everyday. The tragic thing other than my mom dying is that she died on my birthday!
Now if someone can tell me how to deal with that I'm open to suggstions.
I'm slowly dealing with it I thnk th only thing that breaks my heart is my dad.
I can't stand to see him cry or be heartbroken all I want to do is fix his pain and I think that if I can fix his pain then he can help me. So if anyone can give me some insight if you have gone through this pain as well inwould really Luke to know your stories and how you dealt or dealing with it.
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I beIieve the peopIe we Iove most, such as parents, know how we feeI and know the Iove we have for them. There is a bond that doesn\'t have to be put into words.
StiII, I know how you feeI about wishing you had said more. My father died on October 2, 2007. He was 83, and whiIe I knew he was having increasing probIems, I certainIy didn\'t think he was going to die so soon. I stiII cry because I wish I had toId him so many things. I wonder if he reaIIy knew how much I Iooked up to him and what a great father he was.
I have to trust that he did know, and that anything he wasn\'t sure of, God and the angeIs toId him in heaven.
Somehow we find a way to move on. Some days are harder than others, but your mother and her Iove are aIways in your heart.