It's been a long time...

Since I have written and so much has happened. I gave a good go as a manager at another company... HATED it!!! My first manager position.... Learned ALOT. But was very unhappy there. Long story short... I'm back at my old job as a manager now :-) Have a newly single friend an we both decided we were young we need to get out... So the first night out I met some one 0_o we have been dating for over a month.... But I feel the damage my ex... Ruined :-/ I try hard to fight it but Im very guarded... I don't trust him. He does all the right things so im immediately suspicious of him.... he does notice me holding back. Another big thing is I haven't told him about the gastric. He knows I've lost a lot of weight.... Thinks I'm just dieting but I haven't full on told him about it. Don't know why... I tell EVERYONE else. Figureing out as I go... Have my down times... But over all it's damn good :-)