It's Been 2 Months Since my Beautiful Nevaeh Went to Heaven

I am so sad right now because I should have my baby girl growing within me and she is not. My beautiful Nevaeh gained her wings on June 4, 2011 and not a day has gone by that I don't miss her, she is always in my heart. The pain of losing my daughter gets easier with each passing day, but still does not fix the void that I now have in my heart. I thought I was paranoid with Nevaeh, but now I will be 10 times worst with my next pregnancy, I did everything by the book, but God had other plans for my baby girl. God does not give us more than we can handle. I dedicate this poem to my daughter. Mommy loves you so much we shall meet one day my love and mommy will never ever have to say goodbye or let you go **MUAH**
 
Mother's Song
I've lost my baby daughter, Though not misplaced.I feel she's somewhereBound by neither time nor space.Perhaps she sits before the ThroneWith radiant face. She could be dancing happilyLike little girls doWith golden taps beneathEach precious little shoe.I know she must love music,So I'm sure it's true. I'm grateful that in HeavenShe is healthy and strongAnd that she's lulled to sleep each nightBy Heaven's song,But I wish I could hold her;Is that terribly wrong? I sang so often to herWhile she was with meAnd I will go on listeningFor her harmony. How sweet to know I'll hear it In eternity. Lisa L. Easterling

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bjejvj
bjejvj

I join you in your sadness. Life just doesn\'t seem right without our little girls in them. I wish my pain also got easier with each passing day, but it\'s more like Easier some days....Harder on others. Keep living right and you will indeed see Nevaeh again, and never have to say another heartbreaking goodbye.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Beautiful poem. Nevaeh will always be in your heart, and no other children you have can ever replace her, but it will get easier in time. It\'s a wonderful thing to know that we\'ll see our babies again someday and be with them forever!
deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m sorry you are hurting so much today. I know the pain of missing your babies all too well. I feel like with each day we breathe we are one day closer to being with them again. I guess we are in the stage of acceptance because well we don\'t have a choice in the matter. We have peace knowing that they\'re in heaven but it doesn\'t heal our broken hearts. I love the poem that was very beautiful. I\'m here for you and we will get through this.
deleted_user
deleted_user

that poem is so sweet, it made me cry at work girl! i\'m looking so stupid right now! lol

I also believe God does things for a reason. I feel like my m/c happened because I wasn\'t ready for that and I think that God had greater plans for me and my bf (now husband). He has prospered us so much in the last two years and that wouldn\'t have been possible if we had a child. Though that gives me comfort to know that God has great things in store, it still hurts having that hole. I also know that our losses will only strengthen us as mothers.

I pray that you find all the peace that you need and want. :)
babysomeday
babysomeday

Praying that you find peace. Losing a baby is so very hard. Each one stays with you always. I take such comfort in knowing that all 3 of my babies will be given back to me in Heaven. Know you are in my prayers. Sending you a big hug....
CantWaaitToBeAMommy
CantWaaitToBeAMommy

I thank all of you for the kind words of encouragement, just when I think I am making progress I take 2 steps back, it\'s just that some people think by this time I shouldn\'t be grieving. Everything feels so raw today spent the whole day crying, when will it really start to get better? If it wasn\'t for my DS sisters don\'t know how I would have been able to get through this, I pray for all of you all
deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m sorry you are having such a rough day hun. That is a beautiful poem. Life is not easy sometimes and sometimes we are tested but like you said, God doesn\'t give us more than we can handle. Praying that the days get easier for you. She is always watching over you and knows how much you love and miss her. Hugs!