It is well...

One thing I've noticed about trying to quit drinking is my mind tries to beat myself up with old memories and regrets, which often makes me want to drink just to subdue the unpleasant thoughts.  I don't sit around and think about the good times, I can't help to think about things I've screwed up or could have done better.  Then I sit around and play the "what if" game and that game doesn't have a winner, believe me. 
But at a meeting recently, someone spoke about their motto which was "let go and let God", meaning let go of those thoughts and let God do his work with you.  I have had times where I have repeated this over and over in my head just trying to get myself to stop thinking about unhealthy things.  I'm still working on it and its difficult, because I know what those thoughts drive me to.  Another little saying I've picked up on is from an old gospel song that someone brought up in a meeting.  "When sorrows like sea billows roll.... it is well with my soul".  I'm hanging in there, but its not like what I was expecting.  I always felt I could drink when I wanted, but now that my brain doesn't have to fight alcohol, it seems like it has to fight itself.