It is Saturday, I am just so bored and tired of it all.

 It is the weekend. I have been fighting my fibro and panic attacks all week and this weekend looks like it will be the same. I am tired crabby and so sick of fighting today. I would like to just give up and know I can't.
 I will have the kids home for 4 days this weekend and I have to figure out what to do with them. I would like it to be fun, but with us so broke we are going to just be hanging around the apt, which feels like is closing in on me. Going outside for me is not an opt. I will get cold and I will have another flare up. I am just bored.
 I was going to call and see if my mom or soster will visit but I doubt it. They always want me to go over there and since I have no car or way to go. I can't. I would just like to take a break form it all.
 My panic has been so so this week. One day it is fine but since I have been in pain I am fighting that as well. I can't stand sitting in the tub any longer.
 I am going to end here, My kids are getting into things even though they are old enough to know better and I am going to have to freak out on them.