It is never ending

I have not been here for a few weeks because once again I am sick. We thought it was pneumonia but it was a bad sinus infection. That has left and now I have a doozy of a head and chest cold. Along with that I have a badly sprained ankle along with the ankle bone its self being badly bruised in 2 spots, so am in Herman Munster boot for at least another 2 weeks (total of 8 weeks this time). Wearing that durn thing is causing problems with my hips and back also since it is so high and I do not have any shoes that are that high since I am a major fall risk. I saw a back PA and he had me get an epidural immediately and will see him in January to see if that helped. If it does then he will be putting me into an intense physical therapy program to help me lose all the weight I have gained this year, fix the back pain and he also said it will help my fibro. He said when I am done I will feel better than I have in years and look better too. He knows I need to lose a massive amount of weight before September 23rd as that is when Jono my oldest is getting married. YIPPEE something positive to look forward to, although there is a bittersweet side as Jerred should be the one standing next to his big brother/best friend that day. I still need to get the sleep study done but that is last on the list as once ankle is healed I most likely will be having rotator cuff surgery again on my right shoulder.....UGH!. 

As for Tim he has not paid me anything since my last post. I have looked into taking him to court for it but if it is less than 15,000.00 it does no good he will just be told to pay me along with the court cost. I know if I do that all it will accomplish is making him very angry and then he will not pay me anything at all. SO I am standing tall, speaking truth of his own words to me and just waiting. Not much else I can do. It just really hurts as I thought he was a better person than this.

This holiday season is both a blessing and a terror. Has been very stressful already and being sick is just making it worse. The one awesome thing is my grand babies decorated my tree and I have the most beautiful tree ever from top to bottom. Was not able to buy my boys and spouses gifts but both understand and I am so proud of myself as I only spent 15.00 on each of the grands and I have a tall kitchen garbage bag full of brand new wonderful gifts for them. All I have left is to get their ornaments finished and I will have that done tonight or early tomorrow. 

I am praying you all have a wonderful Holiday season as our angels WILL be with each of us as they always are!

Hugs and love,

Susie