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So I cut down drinking for about a week than it all came back roaring like a lion. I was on vacation and drank every day and night and read 8 books. I didnt get falling down drunk but enough i wa impaired
On sunday i got so drunk I laied down on my kitchen floor and wanted to die so i just laied there waiting
I finally got up
Went back to work could not think clearly, anaxity fear not sleeping for a week and half Making poor decision, missing deadline and just being there not functioning
Tried cutting down again didn't take my zanax thought i was having a heart attack 
My some took me the ER they gave me medicine and I felt better
Alcohol abuse, and withdraw with acute check pain
Got drunk on Thanksgiving in the afternoon spent the rest of the day reading book about addiction and reducing my intake and how AA works
Dropped form a bottle of wine or more a day down to 2 and than had 2 beer in evening later and later to keep withdraw DT's or worse heat attack or death or hospitalization
Got down to 2 beer on Sun and di'nt not even enjoy the feeling. My higher power is saving me from myself
 
Today I have not had a drink in 48 hours and went to my 1st AA meeting  I FEEL so good about that
Everyone was so wonderful
More to come....maybe this time i can become a sober person. AA was so much different than I thought  I got so many huggs