it has to be written
i need to say a few things. first i put up a post in the depression thread letting everyone know what i am most likely going to do. second im sorry but i just feel that this is my only option. i saved it for my last option but all the triggers needed to go off for me to kill myself have gone off, and the final one will go off tomorow signalling time for me to end it all. im sorry but i felt that i could atleast say something would atleast let everyone know i wont be here anymore.
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There are always options, it\'s hard when the hurt is bad, we cannot somehow see no other way. Someone may be able to give you these options, yet until we find some peace from that painful state .. can we manage to control our heart & mind towards healing ourselves. I do know, that I am grateful to have made my choice today. I\'m sorry of the hurts you feel inside, don\'t let it control you. You control it. My heart goes out to you. All I can say say is, please don\'t. lol
im trying to keep my head above water but idk. i have weighed heavily all of my options and going on is about as a good of an option of just letting go. in the long run if i live i could try to redeem myself or get things moving along the right track but i feel as if staying alive is the write choice but i cant handle hearing my name in whispers or failing anymore. i have came all this way but i know i cant siply push myself along all ill be doing is digging myself deeper as i hav.
part of this i know has to help me move along and get myself going again but i cant keep on doing the same things i have been something has to change but i dont know what it should be.
I\'m sorry, I\'m only back now.. Are you there? What you are hearing from others is the problem of others. This is the problem, that most of us have. The change is within us. You are given the insight that is telling you that are losing control, and it is okay to get help from someone/support to help you get back on YOUR path. We all need support! From a young child, we just need a little helping hand to walk and somehow we achieve more. We as adults, still are children who needs these comforts. Learning to find that and to give that to ourselves and we fall and strive again, helps us to handle. If doing the same things is not changing the feel of your being, then the balance is not there. Your steps towards a mind; body and soul towards healing. You already have the heart! Never say never. lol