it has brought all the pain back with it
So i got my period for the 1st time after losing Macy yesterday. Almost 3 months later. I knew it was going to be hard to deal with but it has brought back all the painful memories of losing my angel. Is it going to be like this every month?Its not only been the emotional p[ain but ive been having alot of cramping and back pain as well and the bleeding is heavy so it doesnt help when im trying to look at it as a normal natural thing. It just brings back all the sadness i had when i was feeling Macy slip away. This world is not fair i shouldnt even have my period i should be pregant with my daughter
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Hugs! A lot of women had this thought. I am here if you need me.
I totally remembering feeling the same and my first period was physically and emotionally awful. I had a TON of clotting (sorry if TMI) - it was worse than the bleeding after the D&C. The emotional pain will get less with each cycle.... over time you will find some sort of a way to integrate the loss of your baby and weave it into a chapter of your life. You won\'t forget, but you will have happier days. I know it\'s hard to believe, esp right now with AF showing up, but it will. So cry, grieve, let it out and I know that you will have better days ahead of you.
~hugs~