)))) IT HAPPENED,...IM FIRED, ((((((

If one is to be fired I wish it was from Donald, he seems to be a Fair man and might even give you a 2nd chance from what i have seen and heard of him.
My boss was No Donald,but I knew what was coming today,.. the assistant tried to Fool me but I knew the hammer was coming down...
Mom what can I say, Dad says he is Sorry,. Carole oh my sweetest ever Darling, i Know if you could you would hug me so much today, tonight , and forever and assure me everythings going to be ok...
 
==++ AND TO MY SHRINK WHO PASSED AWAY I WISH I COULD HUG HIM, THIS TIME UNLIKE ALL THE OTHER FIREINGS BEYOND THESE 11 YEARS, IT WAS NOT MY MOUTH THAT DID IT, YES, HIS PILL WORKED AND I ALREADY KNEW THEY HAD THERE MIND MADE UP BUT COULD WALK OUT WITHOUT MY MOUTH GOING... THANKS DOCTOR RAHMAN UP IN HEAVEN.....
IT WAS TRUELY A DIFFERENT FEELING BEING FIRED BECAUSE OF THEM AND NOT BECAUSE OF MY MOUTH.....BUT A SIMPLE MISTAKE THEY CHOOSE NOT TO FORGIVE.
BECAUSE SOME STUPID JERK MADE A BAD CONTRACT WITH THE COMPANY AND WITH MY BAD LUCK LATELY IVE BEEN COSTING THEM MONEY WITH THAT CONTRACT. THIS CONTRACT SAYS YOU CAN NOT BE 1 mINUTE LATE OR THE JOB IS FREE,.. WELL, PEOPLE THINGS HAPPEN.
IN THE 11 YEARS I HAVE BENT OVER BACKWARDS, I HAVE NOT BEEN PAID FOR REIMBURSEMENTS, I HAVE NOT BEEN PAID FOR NON INVENTORY WORK, I HAVE NOT BEEN PAID FOR TOLLS CAUSE IT WAS EASIER FOR ME TO USE MY SUNPASS,...AND NOW THERE GETTING RID OF NON AUTOMATED TOLLS ANYWAY SO IT WILL BE MUTE,...i TRIED TO GET tERESA UP BUT i GUESS THIS IS mY WORLD, i LET HER SLEEP AND DID SOME CHORESOBVIOUSLY IM MORE WORRIED ABOUT LOOSING THE HOUSE AND PAYING BILLS THEN SHE IS ALTHOUGH THERE MUST BE SOME CONCERN, SHE HAS CONSIDERED GOING TO WORK BUT DOES NOT WANT TO EFFECT HER DISABILITY.
kEEP HOLDING ON,... OH GOD HOW, I WAS TO HAVE A HELL SCHEDULE NEXT WEEK NOW I HAVE NOTHING, AND WILL BE NO MONEY,.. OH THE BELOVID DOCTOR AND THE OLD THEARAPIST SAID I NEEDED A WORK CHANGE, WAS THIS JUST MENT TO BE SOMETHING DONE CAUSE I COULD NOT BRING MYSELF TO DO IT, OR NOT, JUST SOMETHING STUPID THAT HAPPENED,.. i SEE THE NEW THEARAPIST ONTHE 20TH.
 
oH WHERE IS MY MAXWELL, MY BUSTER,. MY GUYS I COULD COUNT ON..... I WONDER IF THEY ARE WATCHING ME ALSO FROM THAT SPECIAL DOGGIE HEAVEN SPOT...
AM I LOVED, AM I JUST HATED WHY COULD GOD DO THIS TO ME OH WHY, AND WHAT';S NEXT AND WHAT SHOULD I DO,......
THE NEW DOC PUT ME ON A NEW MED AND SO FAR IM LOST OBLIVIOUS, DOES MY MIND SAY IT'S WORKING, OR NOT,...i DO THINK i WANT 3MG OF RISPERDAL BUT MAYBE NOT, BUT FREEDOM NOW OF GETTING IT FROM THE PHARMACY HAS BROKE ME FREE....
iM AFRAID I CAN'T BELIEVE I WENT ALL THIS TIME NOT KNOWING I HAD PTSD AND EVEN MORE TIME NOT KNOWING I WAS AHHH AM,,, BI POLAR,.... AND I HATE THE RIDE,,, i HATE ROLLAR COASTERS,.I HATE HAVING MY FEET OFF THE GROUND,... I WANT TO BE STABLE.
ATLEAST MY DAD DIDNT SAY THIS TIME THAT IT WAS JUST BAD BAHAVIER FROM ME, HE SAID IT WAS UNFORTUANATE,.... YEAH,..RIGHT,... DAD GROWS EACH DAY WITH ME, AND HE WANTS TO LIVE ALTHOUGH HE GETS LONLEY i WANT TO dIE AND END THE PAIN AND THE ENDLESS CHOICES SOME OF THEM TUFF, AND HEARING THE OBVIOUS AND EXPECTED TO DO SO MUCH,.. I WISH I COULD REST, AND IF THAT'S IN A LINED BOX IN A COOL GROUND SOUNDS GOOD TO ME, AND DAD ALREADY PROMISED ME THIS SPOT AT THE FAMILY GROUNDS, MIGHT NOT GET A HEADSTONE IF i CAN'T SWING IT BEFORE i GO, BUT i WILL HAVE A sPOT...AND HOPEFULLY A DRY CASKET.....
 
GOINGT O TRY TO FIND A XANEX NOW AND SEE IF i CAN SLEEP, i THINK IM TAKING TO MANY OF THEM SOMETIMES THEY JUST MELT IN MY MOUTH, HMM,.DON'T SEEM TO WORK WHEN THAT HAPPENS SO NEED ANOTHER ONE,....
lIFE,.. AM i I N THE RAT RACE, AND FOR HOW LONG, OR AM I CHECKING OUT, ds JUST LEAVES ACCOUNTS GOING i SEE FOREVER SO IN SOME WAY i WILL LIVE ON ANYHOW,... WELL, WE WILL SEE I KNOW NOW I NEED TO TRY TO REST,...
 
nite..
 MICHAEL
 
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